Foreclosed on. Going bankrupt. On a leave of absence from the job where I knew my ex could find me. . . the madness would not stop. So I RAN.
I arranged for Austin to stay safe in St. Louis with family. Then I told everyone I was going to Mexico. (But really, I was headed to Florida to hide.)
I was desperate. I worked in a little diner for cash and rented a small room in a roach motel.
I uprooted my entire life to live like a fugitive just to stay safe and be able to BREATHE. Or so I thought.
Then I looked around.
Just like a junior high girl looking for a seat in the lunchroom, I was alone… AGAIN. God? Where are You?
I felt God speak to my heart and something started to CLICK. He was going with me to the hardest place I’d ever gone.
After weeks in hiding, I was going HOME.
In twenty seconds of insane courage, I got in the car and started driving, before I could change my mind.
I felt afraid. I felt ashamed. I felt anxious. I felt embarrassed; I’d made SO many bad decisions.
My hands were shaking on the steering wheel. But I felt a glimmer of HOPE.
The hope that God was sitting next to me in the car. That He was bigger than all of the chaos I’d allowed to accumulate in my life.
Thank God, I broke THROUGH before I broke down!
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Breakdown? NO! Breakthrough? YES!
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