There is this deer that comes to eat corn out of my backyard. Her leg is broken and the bone protruding. It’s winter and cold. She can’t walk far and definitely not fast. I don’t want to approach her too quickly and make her stumble and hurt herself more. And the day I got too close, too fast – she tried to take a step and I heard her cry out in pain.
My eyes welled up with tears and I froze in my tracks. My heart might have even stopped beating for a second.
I called the conservation department. They said they would issue a special tag for someone to ‘harvest’ her. Ugh. I had been feeding her for a week at this point.
I tried to find a vet. No luck. I resigned to find someone to harvest her in bow season, when I wouldn’t be around. Every time she was around the house, by the time they would get there – she was gone.
My eyes are ‘sweating’ right now. I don’t want her to be in pain. But, I don’t want to be the reason she goes to heaven. I was at a get-together with a veterinarian last night. We are now in like week 8 of me feeding this precious deer. I asked if there was a chance for her survival. He said ‘almost zero.’ My head dropped. So, she has been alive for 8 weeks in pain, because I’m not doing the hard thing for me – but the best thing for her quick enough. Double UGH…more ‘eye sweat’.
There are some hard decisions that we need to make. Some that feel almost brutal, but they are BEST. Best for them. Best for you. Best for your future. Best for their future. So why – WHY – are we not clicking in?
I want to encourage you today, you can face this future and this ‘hard decision’. I believe that God is WITH you. Not just WITH you, but He is FOR you. And that even though this MOMENT feels hard – He is bringing the BEST out of it.
I hate to say this, but I feel it in my heart. For some of us, this HARD decision is deciding to carve ‘permission’ and time out to chase the God given dreams and destiny on the inside of us. I’m going to help my Circle of Friends with that. The zoom link should be in your email (if you’re not in my Circle, you can join at nicolecrank.com/circle – to get on, DM me too so we are sure you get the zoom link).
Stop prolonging the pain by not doing that one thing God has been urging you to do. Stepping into it will bring you release and a feeling a peace that you have been craving, no, requiring. Do it. He has you and He will help you!