At our church, I’m a Senior Pastor and the Senior Pastor’s wife.
I also lead our staff team.
That sounds nice…
But sometimes these positions are at war with one another (inside me).
My top priority is being a mother to the church. Loving the congregation, praying for them and being there for them. Right?
But another top priority is making sure that the congregation has an excellent worship experience. An experience uninterrupted by flaws, technical errors and lack of planning or training.
Isn’t this true?
Decisions I Doubt
If someone is crying on my shoulder during worship and the service is falling apart – what am I supposed to do?
This is my personal quandary every weekend.
I know that there are several places in your life too… where you feel torn between two obligations, two loves, two places or things you feel you should be doing at once.
Many times it seems like no matter what I do in that situation, I feel like I am letting someone down or not doing my best. Doubt creeps in.
Doubt is one of the main tools of the enemy.
If he can get us doubting our moves, then maybe he can paralyze us. We do nothing for fear.
Ooooh fear. That’s another one of his big bombshells.
You might hurt this one…
You might not succeed…
They might not like you if you do that…
You might fail in front of everyone…
Doubt is a breeding ground for fear. Fear is a paralyzing position that usually brings about wrong decisions.
How to Avoid Wrong Decisions
I am blessed to have access to a lot of leaders. I love to sit back at the table and listen to them share their concerns, successes, wisdom, questions and thoughts. I learn so much from listening to others talk.
Many times I hear doubt. Doubt from those that are supposed to be leading us.
Doubt in their ability and if they are doing a good job. Doubt about their ability continuing. Doubt about the future and if they have one. Doubt about if what got them here will get them there. Doubt about whether they are as far as they should be.
They doubt to the point that they bring in people from outside their organizations to measure them and consult them on their progress.
If the very people that lead us are assaulted by doubt, don’t we think that we will be too?
Because the enemy knows what is written in the Bible.
But when he asks, he must believe and not doubt, because he who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. That man should not think he will receive anything from the Lord; he is a double-minded man, unstable in all he does.
— James 1:6-8 NIV
A friend of mine once said, “Any decision made in fear is the wrong decision.”
Now whenever I am scared, I repeat that phrase and try to think of what I would do if I wasn’t scared.
The enemy knows that when he can get us to doubt, he takes us out of the game. He gets us to slow down or stop.
To make wrong moves…
So what do we do?
We back up a verse.
If any of you is deficient in wisdom, let him ask of the giving God [Who gives] to everyone liberally and ungrudgingly, without reproaching or faultfinding, and it will be given him. 6 Only it must be in faith that he asks with no wavering (no hesitating, no doubting).
— James 1:5-6 AMP
Just ask God. Talk to Him. Take time. Listen to Him and obey what He says.
Get in the House of God and worship.
He whispers the answer with no doubts.
Lord, here I am to listen.